well as always its been a while.
i dont know what to do about mike. before we hooked up again it was like perfect. but now that we have like the last two days, when we do chill hes distant cuz he doesnt want to act like were together. even though we were acting like that before we hooked up. its like i have to pick what i want, i get one or the other. a sweet guy that likes to cuddle with me and just kick it, or a guy i can hookup with but not hang out with at all.
i really really fuckin like him, but this isnt working. i feel like if we keep going on like this, its just gonna end badly very soon. and i know neither of us wants that. fuck.
and i cant believe he just left this morning. that was fucked up. like i need to make it clear that that is not ok, like even to do to a friend. especially to do to a friend actually. i dont give a shit where he wanted to go it wouldve taken about 2 extra seconds to come give me a fuckin hug.

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